It has been over a month since my last post but a lot seems to have happened since then.
One of the biggest life milestone was finishing up at the job I had been in since I graduated from university. Though I knew it was time to let go, it did not make the parting any less emotional. There were many tears before and after the official announcement and on my last day, the waterworks hit even before I got up to say my final farewells.
It is still slightly surreal, probably because I have not started my new job yet but I’m sure once I’m back in an office space again it will hit me afresh.
What I realised was that at the core of it, it was the people, it was the relationships that I was finding hard to let go of. I know it is not like I’m not going to be friends with my now ex-colleagues but it is more that the relationship dynamics have shifted, we won’t see each other every weekday anymore nor share in some of the in-jokes that used to fly across the partitions. It is that ending that I still mourn quietly in the heart.
But as one wise man once said:
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.*
And now it is time for a new chapter, a new beginning. The old is gone, the new has come (almost). Trying to squeeze in the last few tasks on my to-do list before I settle back into the rhythms of full-time employment.
2013 was a massive year for a lot of people I know – there were a lot of engagements, a few marriages, new jobs, a few new bubs that came along, travel exchanges…
For me, 2013 was a year of transition and change. Stepping away from the life rhythms of a student into the realities of working life was a lot more challenging than I anticipated and I probably had a bit too much on my plate than my introverted self could comfortably handle.
However, having had a chance to really sit back and reflect on the past 365 days, even with its ups and downs, it has been pretty awesome. Made lots of new friends and had a whole host of new experiences. Here are a few of my favourite moments (CLICK BELOW; as posted on Instagram):
The top two personal highlights have probably got to be securing a permanent position for 2014 at my current workplace and being a part of the “Floodgates” music project with my recording-artist-friend, Dale Hembrow (EP to be released early 2014!!).
Now with the start of a new year, I’ve been thinking about what resolutions to make. I’m pretty big on setting goals because at the very least, even if you don’t achieve them all, it gives you a direction and a target to work towards.
Here’s a few good suggestions I’ve found over the inter webs:
How does one begin a blog post after such a long absence? Just do it, I guess haha
What started out as just an idea, grew into a plan and soon enough a blog-free January seemed like the right thing to do. I was starting my new job and I just wanted to rest up as much as possible before I lost my extended holidays for good. However, if I was being real and honest to myself and to you as readers, one of the main reasons for my extended blog break was I just didn’t enjoy it very much anymore.
Perhaps it was my perfectionist tendencies to labour over each photo and edit and re-edit posts.
Perhaps I cared too much about what people thought of me when they read my blog.
Perhaps it was just the end of a massive year and I just needed time to recharge.
Perhaps it could have been a lot of other things but I recognised that blogging had started to become more of a chore for me and as selfish as it sounds, I wasn’t writing for myself anymore. If we drill down a bit further, I was letting my blog consume and define me and it wasn’t healthy.
So blogging was left to the side and real life continued. Adjusting to full-time work has probably been the biggest challenge lately but I am truly blessed to be working with such a great team of people who have been really supportive and helping me settle in. Yesterday marked my first month with the firm and I can see that I am starting to feel more at home now :).
Working day in, day out has also made me realise that I need to make time to do things for myself. Catching up with friends over lunch and dinners has been great but being an introvert, it does take a fair bit out of me and with ministry taking up most of the weekend, there’s not much left in the reserves after working from 9am-5:30pm, 5 days a week.
So I guess this is where blogging has its place. I do miss writing and it’s something that I want to start doing again but with the right motivations. It does mean that my writing style and frequency may change; change isn’t always a bad thing :). CNY and eating out in the city in between and after work has also added fuel to the fire so to speak ;). Hope you’ll continue on this journey with me – if not, I wish you well and will keep writing about the things that motivate, excite and inspire me.